Archive for March, 2009

31
Mar
09

A Revelation

As Cara and I were eating lunch yesterday we got to talking about art stuff. Ive been feeling pretty bummed out about how i never paint anymore, I have no problem reading or playing video games for  hours but I just cant seem to get motivated to watercolor art all. Keep in mind that I have no trouble making drawings, challenging myself with improving the stuff I feel I’m weak in, but when it comes to watercolor I’m just not able to make myself do it anymore. This has felt like a problem because I used to do it all the time, I strove really hard to get the technical chops down and then to all of the sudden feel no motivation was wierd for me.

As we talked  began to realise something, the problem wasn’t that I spent too much time watching TV or riding my bike or playing video-games (thought I probably do spend too much time doing that. . . ) it that I just don’t want to paint anymore. What is strange is that I still have a blast drawing and am working on a new Japanese style sketchbook (which is gonna rock if I pull off what I’m trying to) but i think that for the time being I’m done with painting. The revelation was that I realised it wasn’t some defect in my character or work ethic (as I thought) it was simply the desire was gone, and art minus desire is nothing.

I used to paint when the shop was dead and I felt that selling some flash or a couple paintings a month helped to pay the bills, now that my clientele is pretty steady (knock on wood) I don’t have any time to paint at the shop or “need” to for financial reasons. I enjoyed painting, but I cant force it anymore.

I’m sure someday it will come back, but tattooing is and has always been my first love, its the art that i still get super excited about every day and the urge to tattoo grows and grows even after 10+ years of “pushin’ the pins”. I guess I’m too dumb to have room for more than one thing in my brain at a time requiring my ‘art muscles’, and if there is any competition for those resources, tattooing will win every time.

What was surprising to me was how long it took me to understand that this wasn’t some moral failure or laziness on my part, it seems strange that something I enjoyed so much could stop feeling fulfilling and turn into a slog. I’m a little embarrassed it took me this long to quit beating myself up about it. Im not sure if this has any bearing but i hand been meditating as much as I usually do, i took a week or so off and within that short time I began to get more bitchy, less patient, little things began to get on my nerves, two days after I began my zazen again i had this ‘revelation’ the world looks and feels better, and my desire to bust out bigger and better tattoos is more than ever. They say that we shouldn’t look for any goal in zazen and I believe this, however when i let it go too long it sure seems like life is a lot less fun and easy!

21
Mar
09

Bike Porn

There is something about a simple machine which invites admiration. A car has a beauty all its own, but a pair of antique scissors  or a beautiful crafted tattoo machine singlecoil1008

has a certain something, a combination of simplicity and yet a refinement that takes the everyday tool into the realm of art. Often what is most beautiful is the items simple effectiveness. John Moniz tattoo machines (like that one on the right there) are not just pretty to look at, but by all accounts are amazingly effective tattoo machines, you don’t leave these in a display case!

Lately my obsession has been for bikes. I have a perfectly lovely KHS urban X bike that is not only cheap and really effective, but looks tough as well. Ive been riding all over town and I love it more than I even thought I would. I was a bit nervous that I would shell it out and hate it, but I coulsnt be happier.

Still I’m not above enjoying a little bikey porn on the side and In my internet searchings Ive found a couple really talented and beautiful builders. Check em out!

http://vanillabicycles.com/ – Awesome commuter oriented bikes (my faves) with amazing details like custom dropouts, brackets, lugs, and the coolest paintjobs ever. They have a shit ton of clothes and hats n stuff too.

http://4130inc.com/ – Racer and roadbikes handbuilt. He even made Mike Giant a custom Amsterdam style commuter. I would love to blow the bank on one of these bad boys. The kind of bike that looks pretty and means bizniz.

http://www.mapbicycles.com/ -beautiful bikes with tons of unique touches. check out the chain guards, frame geometry, racks, and fenders on these pretty babies!

UPDATE! (mar 25th) Check out this shit!

http://www.fastboycycles.com/- even the splash page is f’n amazing, WOODEN HANDLEBARS!!!? This guy is killing it.

Bike porn! enjoy!

19
Mar
09

Burn the mona lisa

Many years ago i heard a news story about how the Taliban in Afghanistan were blowing up some ancient Buddhist statues that had been carved into the side of a mountain. Like many religions based on the judeo-christian model, these particular Muslims believed that any image of a “god” was “evil”. I wont even get into the silly argument about how a rock that has some carvings on it can be “evil”, but suffice it to say there was a  huge international outcry condemning the Taliban for this action. What really bothered me was that most of the loudest voices were coming from Buddhists themselves.

There is a great old zen story about a monk who has been studying with his teacher for years, eventually it becomes clear that the student has achieved the understanding to become a master himself. So the old teacher says to the monk, “well, you have understanding now so go out and be a master, and take this book that my teacher and his teacher passed on to him.” The monk politely returned the book saying “thanks, but I have received your teaching and I like its original face, I don’t need a book”. Well the teacher was a little put off and said, “yes I know that, but you should take it anyway because its a tradition.” The monk didn’t want to argue anymore so he accepted the book, he then turned and tossed it in the fire! His teacher exploded with anger at this shouting “WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?” but the monk screamed right back “WHAT ARE YOU SAYING!?

The teacher in the story had been teaching non-attachment to transient things and yet was clearly attached to the book and the tradition of passing it on. The monk actually understood the teaching and had no need for things. The point of the story isnt to say we should destroy anything we like or burn our attachments, its to point out that, like the teacher, we shouldn’t mistake the rhetoric forthe actual message. Awakening wasn’t in the book the monk burned, and neither was it in the tradition.

So when the Taliban blew up those ancient statues it was a shame, I would have preferred that they didnt, but really it didn’t mean shit to me, as a Buddhist, that some old statues were blown up.

We tend to take all kinds of stuff in our world and try to make it more important than it really is. As if by putting this or that thing on a pedestal and calling it ‘very important” that it will somehow make the world feel more comfortable, less ever changing. The problem, as the Buddha taught us, is that all things are impermanent (or as the old books put it “All conditioned phenomena are transitory”) Nothing is outside of this, not us, the world, the universe, or god. And I don’t just mean in a hippy spiritual way either, science has taught us that all matter is made of atoms, and not static atoms either, moving, pulsing, ever changing atoms. The hardest diamond and the densest granite are made of a constant moving, dancing multitude of atoms, particles, and waves. Change, literally, is the foundation of everything around us, in us, and . . .well. . .us.

In art we take a painting like the Mona Lisa and put it in a hyperbaric chamber, we shield it from light, we filter out every iota of air that passes over it and yet for all our efforts its going to pass out of existence. I believe that the longer we hold onto the Mona Lisa unnaturally, the more we damage ourselves. Why? For one thing we have made it so precious and special that people can and would steal or  kill for it, for a painting! This is so patently stupid that it makes my head hurt! There is not one life on this planet, not an ant, not a flea, not a worm that would be worth killing for the Mona Lisa, and yet plenty of folks would murder to possess or protect it. Second, as long as we have this Mona Lisa no artist will be able to create another. Who can create the next great painting of a coyly smiling girl as long as it will always be considered ‘just” another mona lisa? Maybe we don’t need to burn it, but I do think its time to let it (and all other art) fade naturally into graceful dust.

At one point all these great masterworks were hanging in some patrons living room, smoke from their pipes and fires caressed it, curious fingers rubbed it, the air they breathed in and out mingles with the air passing over and through the painting it. They were alive. now they are dead, stiff, preserved like Lenin in some artificial state away from the world that made and cherished them. How often do we do this with our thoughts, beliefs and opinions? We try to take something simple and natural and hold it exactly as it was when we liked it best. . .we turn a living breathing changing thing into a brittle dessicated corpse and wonder why it doesn’t make us happy anymore.

When I was still married, the most frequent argument my ex and I got into was over how the other person “wasn’t like they used to be”. It seems so stupid to me now, but  neither of us could accept that this person we were married to somehow wasn’t the same person they had been a decade before! We didn’t want to accept that we had changed, we couldn’t live with the fact that what we had been was gone and we tried for too many years to hold onto that past as if by doing so that we could stop the world. It was a disaster. The day i got up from my daily zazen and realised that I had been holding onto a dead notion and let it go I felt like a newborn child. Even my ex, who by that point never said more than a word to me in a day felt it, we were frightened to be ending something we had believed would last forever, but both of us felt how freeing it was to simply accept reality.

And reality is what it is all about. Those statues stood for a thousand years and they were beautiful, for better or for worse they were blown up by people so scared that they need to destroy anything that reminded them that the world isn’t exactly how their dead, dessicated belief told them it should be. Now, at least, someone can get to work carving new Buddhas out of the mountains.

17
Mar
09

I get ink

I went out to visit my good friends at Unique Ink today on my day off. The owner, Nick Christofano has already done the excellent black and grey rose on my left hand and ive been busting his balls to do a spider for my neck for months.

In 1985 I was a wee 15 year old punk rocker and had just begun stretching out into my own personality and music and one the main bibles for me in those days was a zine called Flipside. it was like Maximum Rock N Roll but more fun, less concerned  with who was a “poser” or not and besides, they were huge fans of my favorite punk bands of all time GBH, Circle Jerks, and the Ramones. I saw an interview with GBH and there was an amazing photo of their guitar player, Jock, with a black widow tattoo on his neck.

Jock these days

Jock these days

Now bear in mind that this was 19 fucking 85! No one had neck tattoos except for seriously heavy dudes and punks. It was the first time in my life that I looked at a tattoo and thought, “yea, Im gonna get me some of that!” Within weeks I had done my first hand poked tattoo and later my brother and I built a jailhouse rig tattoo machine and began marking up ourselves and friends.

Flash forward 25 or so years and After tattooing for the last 12 or so years I’m pretty sure that I’m not going to be a doctor or a lawyer. i already have my hands tattooed and when i began considering my neck there was only one choice for me. A black widow like Jocks.

So, Nick had some time and though i had no idea this morning when i woke up I would be getting my neck tattooed, i ended up with a killer fucking spider!

my-neck

The guys at Unique kept wanting me to add some background color, or yellow in the eyes and normally I’m all about making tattoos more and brighter, but this particular spider is the completion of a journey that started for me in 1985 and though I’m not at all that person anymore, i felt like I needed to keep it simple, clean, tough looking. . . .In short, punk.

Nick did an amazing job and i was surprised at how well i took it, one of the nice things about getting tattooed by your friends is that you know that you could whine and cry and take breaks and they would understand (cause they all have enough work to know that shit hurts) but at the same time you don’t want to do any of that because you want to make the job as easy for your friends as possible since you also know what a nightmare some customers can be. So I sucked it up, didn’t move or stop and actually didn’t find it all that bad at all, and believe me, I’m a pussy when i get tattooed!

my-neck-close

My sweetie, Cara, loves it and so do I. Hopefully I will be able to get the other side done before years end!

Thanks Nick!

17
Mar
09

I think Dumb Stuff is funny pt.2

weaves

I saw this weave laying on the street the other day and the whole idea for this silly ad sprung right into my degenerate brain. Please, help us save the weaves.

10
Mar
09

A longwinded response to my friend PD

PD has been posting some GREAT questions in the comment section of the previous blog. Its amazing that there are people who care this much about tattooing, and I appreciate his enthusiasm.  However what Buddhism has taught me is that its far too easy to lose the forest in trying to tend to our one favorite tree. Anyway here is my response to his blizzard of posts :)

The problem is that , In my opinion, you are looking at the wrong things to worry about. The question isnt “what should WE do to make tattooing like we want it to be?” because thats a rediculous notion. It doesnt need a WE or golden rules to ‘fix’ it. Tattooing is, quite frankly, not worth expending that much time and effort over pondering “big questions”.

So what IS that important? This moment. Have you taken your dog for a walk today? Have you told your loved ones that you love them? Were you courteous on the road or did you scream at the lady at the bank when she made a mistake? Are you making you best effort to do the next right thing? Thats important. Its ALL thats important. I promise you that if we all just do the next right thing, and then the next right thing, and then the next right thing, that all these “problems” we spend so much stress and (and typing) over will take care of themselves. Ive seen it over and over in my own life and others. My own tattooing grew by leaps and bounds when i put away my worries about who else was being as respectful as i thought I was.

Im not apsychic, but I can make one prediction about this thing we love called tattooing. It is never going to stop, something about being human makes us want to do things like tattooing to ourselves. We always have and we always will, from cavemen to businessmen it never ends. When you talk about traditions to uphold you are taking an arbitrary set of patterns and deciding they are more important than those other patterns over there. Its All in your head. All those old time guys were just trying tomake a living, they did what they had to do and if there was any tradition they followed it was by accident. If you want to revere those guys then do it for the fact that they didnt sit around worrying how ‘authentic’ and pure what they were doing was, they just fucking did it. We need to take THAT lesson from the past, do what you do the best you can and stop worrying about what the other guy is doing.

And as for the “secrets” of tattooing, its bullshit. Its pure grade A bullshit. It doesnt exist, its not that hard to figure it out and since there has been modern tattooing there has been books and people willing to tell anyone how to do it for a dollar (including many of your beloved Old timers) It isnt a secret society, its not a cool club, there are no rules and there is no governing body. its a herd of cats, it always has been and dear god in heaven please keep it that way. Because the second, the very second you codify and petrify tattooing into a set of steps, rules, regulation, and formal traditions is the moment you turn it from ART into a commodity. If such a horrible thing were possible then every tattoo shop would be a McDonalds like chain of repetition and rules written down in three ring binders. We NEED chaos, we NEED slop room, we NEED there to be unscrupulous hacks AND conscientious innovators. We need tradition and we need to throw tradition on the fire. In Zen there is a saying ” a student who achieves his masters level of understanding, has only gained half of his teachers merit” We need to go BEYOND our teachers, we need to excell personally and individually and hamstringing yourself by worrying about what some dead old guy would think is stupid and retards tattooing. Look at a tattoo magazine from 1980. Would you wear one, ANY one of those tattoos now? NO fucking way. Now look at one from 2009, fuck I can pick out a dozen i would be flattered and priveledged to carry on my body. Tradition is a mile marker, not a map. its a record not a blueprint, dont mistake the finger pointing at the moon FOR the moon itself.

09
Mar
09

Why you are not what you do.

On one of my favorite tattoo forums there was an ongoing debate about whether tattooing has become “too mainstream” or not. With the gist being that many tattooers feel tattooing lacks the danger it once had. In fact none the guys espousing this opinion really was a tattooer (or even born) in the time period they are referring to (i.e. the 1920’s to the 50’s) and seeming to pine for.

Its not just tattooing either, when i was a punk all anyone talked about was how the people into punk at that time were just ‘posers’ the only ‘real’ punks listened to the germs and shot smack. In either case I’m fairly sure that this supposed ‘golden age’ was pretty miserable to actually have to live in. So what is so attractive about those ’salad days’ that almost anyone, in any endeavor seem to wish for?

I’m not sure, but the one consensus seems to be that if the was a time when things were wonderful, It cant be this time right now! Even in the face of plain facts like the fact that tattooing generally sucked back then, was only able to support a few dozen tattooer through the whole country, and the artist frequently died broke and alcoholic these folks who ought to know better continue to claim the tattooing was somehow more pure ‘back then’. Why?

If I had to guess id say it comes down to control, or perceived control anyhow. All of us began tattooing with certain illusions of what it would be like, as soon as you actually start to do it though those get shattered, its one of the only times we as tattooers have to face that and adapt to the way things are instead of the way we wish them to be. Its a scary period, and every tattoo for the first months feels like a tightrope walk. Eventually we gain some facility with the machine, with handling customers, and with our abilities as artists, sadly this is when the stagnation begins. We just don’t like change, and as soon as we feel like we have “made it’ we want the change to stop!

I can clearly remember when photo-realistic wildlife became all the rage, i was terrified! I couldnt do single needle fine-line grizzly bears! I was convinced that it was all anyone would want and i would be back washing dishes while some wise ass kid who “didn’t deserve it” would be tattooing in my place! Of course the predicted disaster never came to pass, but that didn’t stop me pissing and moaning about it. I was scared, and the people who think tattooing is too “clean” or “easy” or “for rich kids” (whatever that means) are scared too. Most of them arent very confident and at the heart of their complaint is the idea that now that they have made it into the clubhouse that its time to pull the ladder up and not let anyone else in.

The obvious flaw in this mentality is the assumption that “we” actually have the ability to to freeze (or reverse) time back to the “good ole’ days”. All other arguments aside, the mere fact that they are mad about something as unstoppable and inevitable as change is an enormous waste of time and effort. Even if, EVEN IF everything these guys are saying about tattooing today is true (and I dont particularly think that they are) there still wouldn’t be one thing we could do to change it into what they want. For better or worse tattooing is popular, accessible, and it isn’t going to go back to the way they believe it was. So all the complaining really has no constructive benefit at all, its more of an opportunity to play “I’m more pure than you” as each person makes more and bolder declarations of their desire to put tattooing back into the stone ages when, they imply, only a real blue-collar hard ass like themselves would be able to handle the rough and tumble characters ‘cool’ enough to ‘deserve’ to be tattooed.

I believe that whatever chosen niche these kind of folks find themselves in it would be the same thing, from import-car tuners to scrabble freaks the forum would still be rife with “right now our thing is lame, it was better in the old days”. So whats the problem, if they want to waste their time being angry at the world for its natural movement and change why should i care?

In one way i don’t, Ive given up trying to change peoples minds, in fact these days I highly doubt that I’m qualified to judge such a thing. perhaps they are right and I’m full of hot air. . it wouldn’t honestly surprise me. But in another way do care because I genuinely like these guys, I feel like they are my brothers in a way, and I have been in this business long enough to see the pernicious effects of that kind of cynicism and self-righteousness.

Ive watched more than a few friends who began as bright, eager, awesome tattooers degenerate into bitter, self-hating defeatists because they simply couldn’t see the wonder and beauty of what we have right now through the fog of their unrealistic and unattainable fantasy world of ‘how it oughta be’. I really hate to see that cancer of delusion and ignorance take over otherwise fantastic artists. Its almost like they are afraid to admit that things are going well right now, it seems like they feel that it would somehow be un-tough to accept the world as it is. I wish I could show them that the hardest thing in the world to do is to let go of our own bullshit, but that when we do life becomes amazingly, unbelievably easy.

It really IS possible to care about tattooing (or whatever you particular personality foundation is based on) too much. Its important, but not as important as living awake in the world right now, right here, as it comes to us, not as we want it to. Over the years I have struggled to shed the layers, I don’t care anymore whether people know what I was, that isn’t me now. I don’t need to trot out my various phases of life, my conquests, my story of how my struggle was so tough and hard to prove that I deserve to be here now. I realise now that I deserve to be here now simply because this is actually where I am, and thats enough. I am not what I do. I do tattoos for a livng and I try with all my heart to be the best at it I can, but I am not “a tattooer”. I love my girlfriend with all my soul but i am not “a boyfriend”. I listen to many kinds of music and it moves me to the center of my soul but I am not “a punk or rasta or stoner”. And I even follow the precepts and method of Buddhism, and i feel it has saved my life, but I’m not “a Buddhist.”

Im just me. and so are all of you. And because of that reason, where and how we are right this very second is the best time that has ever been, can ever be, and will ever be.

Please enjoy it.

06
Mar
09

Everything is amazing, nobodys happy

More true than we know

We live in an age of miracles. We live in a world that not only did our grandparents never imagine possible, but that our parents couldn’t conceive! Our level of comfort (in the ‘industrialised’ world, anyway) is astounding.

But we still bitch about it.

Now we hear about the horror of the recession, and it IS horrible, but I firmly believe that everything that occurs is, in the end, for the best. Perhaps its time we experienced some of that balance, perhaps its time that we in the wealthy nations feel a little of the pain of the rest of the world. Of the majority of the world who don’t have two cars, giant televisions, laptops. . . fuck, half of them don’t have clean water and enough to eat!

Now rest assured I am counting myself in on this too. Of my 38 years I would guess that Ive spent 35 of them being really poor and the last couple only being moderately poor (by American standards) I wasn’t unhappy, I didn’t starve to death (in fact, i got fat as fuck) and I managed to entertain myself just fine without computers and cable and all of that. So I’m not scared of having to live broke again, and if it means a great balancing of the scales then ill take one for the team (that’s team Humanity, by the way, i could give a fuck about team America, team whitey, team capitalist, team tattooer, team punk, or any other team that excludes ANYONE.)

In all honesty I don’t see the dystopian horror that some are predicting, in fact I actually see a tremendous opportunity. Maybe, just maybe we will learn to get by with a little bit less, to live within our paychecks, to not trust banks and institutions to keep our loans within our means, maybe we will become so disgusted with business that rewards its upper eschelons with billions  while keeping the people who actually do the work barely solvent that we will refuse to buy or patronise their institutions til their paychecks are no more than 100% more than the lowest paid workers is. Maybe we will wipe the fucking desire for a new TV, Car, Computer  every damn year out of our greedy, grasping minds.

Maybe, just maybe we will learn to be happy with what we have.

I can honestly see it. really. We in the western world are adolescents, sure there are a few adults, but the vast majority of us are spoiled teenagers. And no matter how sheltered of an adolescent you are sooner or later life delivers a huge dose of reality upside your face. WHACK! I hope this whole recession thing is ours. Growing up hurts, you get your first puppy love dreams smashed and the responsibilities of adulthood come on you whether you are ready or not, and if you are smart,( and I think we are) you roll up your sleeves and get on with being a grown up in a world of reality. So i can see us growing up, Ive already seen it in the amazing progress we have made just in my lifetime, we are not hopeless. But we need to wake up.

We need it and, like it or not, i think we are going to get it.




My Name is Jason Lambert. Currently, im a 39 year old buddhist and a tattoo artist with over a decade of inking under my belt. I work at Black Cat tattoos in Pittsburgh Pa. Before I became a tattooer I was a punk rock loser, a photographer, zine publisher, married, and aimless. Now, Im none of that stuff (though all of it made me what I am today.) Thanks for taking the time to look at this page.

 

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 water girl

flop chicken

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flop chest

coke pin up

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convention scepter

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